Yesterday, in a Compassion Key session, I met Sadness.
She’s been near me my whole life—quiet, faithful, misunderstood. Always there. Always waiting.
Grief has been with me too, but Grief is enormous. Yesterday she was too big to hold, too wide to remember fully. So Sadness came instead.
She didn’t arrive as a problem. She arrived as a vast, gentle being of compassion. She took my hand, soothed me, and showed me something simple: the world never understood her.
Humans have mislabeled Sadness—pushed her away, shamed her, called her “wrong,” treated her like a weakness or a lower emotion. But she told me she has always been my medicine: a quiet spoonful of tenderness walking beside me, offering the kind of love that doesn’t need to fix anything.
For the first time, I let her in.
This morning, in another session, Grief finally came.
I could allow her this time—the biggest, widest presence I’ve ever let near me. And she spoke clearly: humanity has distorted me, turned me into something to fear or fight. But I arrive when things go really wrong—when life becomes too heavy to carry alone.
I come to sit with you in the unbearable places.
Not to hurt you. To be with you.
Then Rumi’s Guest House rose inside me: these feelings are guests.
I don’t have to push them out or analyze them. I can let them come through the doors of me—arriving as they are, leaving when they’re done.
This morning, grief felt different. She became devotion to life itself: a great love that tells the truth and stays. A gift that meets my deepest fears—loss, aloneness, the places where I can’t hold myself up.
I didn’t conquer Sadness or Grief.
I welcomed them.
And when I did, they stopped being enemies. They became companions—beings who have always known how to stay when nothing else would.
Now they feel like love wearing their true faces.
I let them in.
They stayed.
And for the first time, they feel like home.
Grail Integrations:
Through my own lineage and the path I chose to walk again as the Priestess of the Order of the Magdalene, I was called to embody it fully—guiding others by modeling the quiet abiding, where the storyteller’s thread weaves without breaking, the Celtic well mirrors without distortion, and the Feminine Divine reveals itself as the self that was never lost. It’s a radical intimacy: devotion turned inward, where the “higher” dissolves into the here-and-now presence, freeing us from the exhaustion of separation.
You can join me at Crow’s Nest Artist Collection – Willow Point, BC
As a Magdalene, I trained in the following:
Anointing rites
Embodied wisdom
Sacred sexuality
Womb, blood, and heart-centered spirituality
The role of woman as spiritual transmitter!
Lately I’ve been sitting with a question that won’t let me go:
If no one could see you… who are you?
Not mother, not partner, not caregiver, not the one who holds it together.
Not the one who performs, provides, proves, or pleases.
What remains when nothing exists— when you stop living for others, when you stop living in a way society has moulded you?
If no one could evaluate you, need you, approve you, or misunderstand you—what remains?
And I want to say this gently, because it’s more common than we admit: Many of us don’t actually know what our own presence feels like.
We’ve learned who we are by reflection—by how others respond to us, what they want from us, what they approve of, what they need. We’ve been trained to track the room, manage the moment, be “good,” be safe, be useful. Over time, we can become a shape made of expectations.
So when I ask “who are you?” I’m not asking for a perfect answer.
I’m asking about the first honest sensation… the small flicker that’s yours.
The quiet place underneath the performance.
The part of you that exists even when no one is watching.
I’m not asking this as an idea. I’m asking it as a doorway.
Because I can feel there’s something in us that’s older than expectation, deeper than identity, and truer than the stories we’ve had to wear.
Invitation:
I’m opening a small monthly women’s circle in my home called Grail Initiations (very intimate—only 4 women). We’ll open sacred space, honor what’s present beneath the story, move through embodied practices of presence and nourishment, and close with deep witnessing and integration. We will gather according to set times to cultivate this space within. Contact me for costs and fore more details.
If you feel a quiet yes in your body, message me and I’ll share the next date/time and the details so you can begin to witness yourself!
A New Year Intention Reading with the Alchemist’s Code
Rather than creating resolutions from habit or pressure.
This session helps you clarify what is genuinely asking to lead your year and how to work with it coherently.
Reconnect with the deeper intelligence shaping your year ahead.
• Investment: $35.00
• Format: 20 minutes
This offering is a focused, alchemical intention-setting session using The Alchemist’s Code — a living system of archetypal symbols and transmissions drawn from an oracle system informed by
visionary wisdom and priestess-oriented initiatory traditions, offering symbolic guidance for clear decision-making and coherent intention.
Rather than creating resolutions from habit or pressure, this session helps you clarify what is genuinely asking to lead your year — and how to work with it coherently.
Through this reading, we explore:
The core archetypal codes shaping your desires and direction for 2026
The supportive currents already available to you
The threshold patterns that influence momentum, focus, and follow-through
The elemental balances that help an intention anchor into daily life
Together, we bring your intentions into alignment across mind, body, and action, so they are sustainable rather than aspirational.
Contact: DM me on FB or send an email to : IamHigherSelf@gmail.com to book your session!
Full Moon Grail Integrations
Monthly Womb Circle
You’re invited to a 3-hour once a-month gathering for women
This Threshold circle offers a gentle, embodied return to the inner temple — a quiet space to remember what it feels like to simply be a woman, beyond roles, identities, and daily stories.
We open by creating sacred space and inviting only benevolent ancestral support. Through guided sensing, softening, and rebalancing, we explore the feminine within with deep presence and energetic self-care.
This is devotional work: the art of offering wisdom, healing, and aligned action.
There is no performance here, no therapy, no fixing — only spirit-led witnessing, sisterhood in stillness, and a gentle closing that seals the revelations back into your everyday life.
Held in my home in Oyster Bay, BC (exact address shared upon RSVP 3 hours (4 – 7 pm)
Limited to a small, intimate group for deep safety & connection- reservations required!
I am Tammy, a Celtic Shamanic Priestess of the Order of the Magelene, Sacred Storyteller, and devoted Guide for the Divine Feminine Energies.
I offer workshops and personal service through rituals, readings, Shamanic led art workshops and more! ( please check my website for my offerings)
Facebook: Divine Dialogues – www.heartofcompassion.ca
Please contact me for costs and details
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